Sunday, August 16, 2015

Of Random Thoughts and Plans

It's almost 10 minutes after 3:00 in the morning and I am writing this while waiting for an e-mail attachment to finish uploading. Work as always, but it's just me procrastinating early on that's why.

From the last few days, I've learned to somehow set a boundary between my me-time and my work. The number of times I checked my e-mail, replied to a text, or just answered a call after office hours was surprisingly lesser compared from before. I don't know if it's a good thing -- but what I do know is that it helps me keep my mind at ease if just for a few hours.

I am slowly coming to terms with the reality that these things won't really affect me that much if I don't also think about them that much. And so far, it's been good.

I'm am striving to finally get a life outside of work these past few days... and luckily, the results were satisfying. I even had a bunch of things on my to-do list right now. Pretty special things! :D

  • I am gearing up towards a really big change in my life that I just decided to do one particularly humid afternoon, after talking to my dad and realizing that I don't know what the hell I am doing with my life at the moment. I am finally going back to school, and as much as I want to say more about it... I guess, I'll announce it here once it's all set in stone. Ayt?

  • Status and blog updates of friends or just plain acquaintances getting published seriously bothered me and got me to thinking where my dream of becoming a writer go. I've always wanted to write, and even if I know that I'm not particularly good at it, the dream still lives on. The craziest thing I did this week? I created an account in a writing platform under an alias. I mean, really. >.< I want to literally write my own fiction, the fiction I'd like to read. I don't really have that ultimate goal of being published (but if given the chance, yeah, that's an added bonus)... but this is me trying this thing rather than regretting not doing it for the rest of my life. :)

  • I am actually thinking of finally changing themes! For this blog, yes! I know that my current layout was made by sheer effort right before my college graduation but I do think that this style does not suit me anymore. I'll squeeze things in, and, hopefully I could find time to do it. 

Life is crazy these days. But I know, the next few days are gonna be exciting! :)

My comfort cafe is back!

It's back! It's finally back! 

After weeks of renovation, Press Cafe (Rockwell Branch) has finally reopened. 

Since our previous office was literally just in front of the Power Plant Mall, this cafe has been my go-to place whenever I feel down or just downright struck by the bad combination of stress + pressure in the past. Carbonara has always had a special place in my heart. And this is one cafe where I frequently get my fix of that. It's an added bonus that it's beside Fullybooked. So yeah, you could imagine the book hoarding (and window shopping) involved while waiting for my order to be served at my table.

It was fully renovated, in all fairness. With a more spacious and more minimalist design.

And with all the books and what-nots, I think they're trying to pattern the interiors with their Alabang branch back at ATC.

Wood was everywhere. Even the menu styling was changed. 

We really missed their Chicken Roulade! I liked their previous plating mroe, but the taste was still the same. :)

A plate of Carbonara for me!  

Pasta Arrabiata for my friend.

Although we noticed some slight change in the taste of the pastas that we've grown to love in the past, uhm, smaller serving, and, uh, less interesting platings (attention: people allergic to change), it was still a pretty filling dinner. 

I still can't get the Muji Store back at Rockwell out of my mind whenever I picture their new interiors. But it was really an upgrade from their past design. 

Whatever, I'm just so glad that it is finally back on business again. :)

Chill out nights are back! :)

Sunday, August 9, 2015

Life Lately #001

Well, sadly, August started a bit rough for me.

Life at work has been pretty tough for some reason these past few days.
It's not really the amount of work that bothers me, but how I respond to it.
I'm not normally like this, as I am a self-confessed pressure sucker.
Maybe it's the added responsibility, or just the thought that I have to prove myself every freakin' time.
It's like there's this implicit rule to always keep appearances... and more often than not, I hate that about the corporate world,
Sometimes, it's pretty exhausting to keep up with that kind of environment -- that I find myself retreating once again in this little shell of mine.
And that kind of thing -- that kind of feeling -- won't ever be easy to explain.

I don't know if I'll be in trouble for posting this, but I need to vent out.
Obviously, Facebook is not an option as there are people lurking in there, waiting for something they'll find 'juicy' to talk about (I can just imagine), or, better yet, poke fun at.
And I'm not really in the mood to be judged right now.

There're days when I am trying to figure out if I am going the right way.
There are even days when I just don't want to get out of bed -- devoid of any motivation to just downright exist. (Don't worry, no suicidal thoughts involved.)

Maybe I am undergoing some sort of 'quarter life crisis' right now, if that's what you call it.
I have these long talks with my father that can always be summed up with "I don't know wtf I am doing with my life right now."
And it's pretty frustrating, reaching this age and all.
That just when you thought things are going to get clearer, you find both your feet stuck deeper into that mud you're in.

I badly need change in my life right now.
May it be my environment.
My career.
Or, say, just my mindset.

The next few months are going to be crucial.
And who knows, maybe I'll come out a better person from all of this (or a depressing chump who knows nothing but complain, oh well).

Big things are about to happen.
And big decisions are about to be made.
I can feel it.

But in the meantime, self, hold on. And try to get by.
Your questions will be answered in due time.


I am writing this at roughly 4 minutes after 7:00 AM on a Monday. It's a working day and I haven't slept a wink and I am wondering if this is really how I want to live my life.

Saturday, August 8, 2015

Weekend Escapade: Beantage Cafe

A couple of weeks ago, we set out to find this cute little place that we found online. Honestly speaking, it's rare for me to hear about local cafes within our area that're getting rave reviews. Maybe I'm just not that informed, but yeah, you get my point.

Beantage Cafe is a quaint little coffee shop located among several commercial places lined up between Patindig Araw and South Super Market along Aguinaldo High Way at Imus, Cavite. We hail from Dasmarinas City, Cavite so getting there and locating it still took some time -- despite being a neighboring town of Imus.

It was just a small place, but boy they managed to make it feel comforting and all. And though you won't really think of it that much when viewed from the outside, the interior was artsy and cozy.

We each ordered our fill.

My sisters, of course, opted for the visually appealing blended cold beverages. One Ferreo Frappe (160 Php) and one Oreo Overload Frappe (145 Php).

Will you look at that? It even had a whole ferrero chocolate on top of the whipped cream!

I ordered a cup of good ol' Caramel Macchiato (115 Php) and, my go-to food at wherever, a plate of Creamy Bacon & Ham Carbonara (115 Php). To note, their carbonara was surprisingly tasty. :P

Comfort foods at their best. :)

We also ordered some Grilled Cheese Sandwich (70 Php) with some chips on the side + a Sizzling T-bone Steak (125 Php, not pictured).

One revelation was the Crispy Bacon Roll Ups (135 Php), that are like bacon-wrapped mozzarella cheese sticks, which were pretty awesome we ordered another batch for us to take home.

It was a really filling food trip.

The whole place was full of quotes about coffee and having a good time in general. :)

Found this nice clock hanging at the wall. 

They even serve their bills like this! Ain't it cute? :)

Anyways, it was really fun. I hope we can drop by again some time. :)

- R.

It's been a while since I posted an entry with my face on it. This was fun. :)

Friday, July 31, 2015

Book: Me Before You (Me Before You, #1) by Jojo Moyes

I accidentally came across Jojo Moyes' Me Before You while browsing through Goodreads' regular newsletter. It was listed under Best Beach Reads of 2015. I got intrigued by the somewhat minimalist cover design. And when I looked it up online, I was amazed at how hugely popular it was. Why people voted for this to be a 'beach read'? I have no idea. (Why people would want to be a sobbing mess in a beach, with its azure skies and cool waters... I have no idea either.) But in any case, I did bit into it. AND OH MY GOD, what a wonderful experience it has been.


Book Blurb:
Lou Clark knows lots of things. She knows how many footsteps there are between the bus stop and home. She knows she likes working in The Buttered Bun tea shop and she knows she might not love her boyfriend Patrick.
What Lou doesn't know is she's about to lose her job or that knowing what's coming is what keeps her sane.
Will Traynor knows his motorcycle accident took away his desire to live. He knows everything feels very small and rather joyless now and he knows exactly how he's going to put a stop to that.
What Will doesn't know is that Lou is about to burst into his world in a riot of colour. And neither of them knows they're going to change the other for all time.
(via Goodreads)

Words cannot describe how much this book means to me. This is not your typical chick lit. Heck, I can't even categorize it as strictly 'chick lit'. It's not even your ordinary romance book, either. It's a complex book which is so much more than the genres we restrict it to. It's about life... living the life, getting a life, or just even missing THE life. It taught me so much about myself and the way I lived my life till now that I can never in a million years get without maybe reading this book. It shook me and questioned me on what the hell am I doing in my life right now.

Am I happy with the way things are at the moment?
Am I playing it too safe?
Are the things I am doing right now worthy to be given my limited time?

And yes, this book managed to draw out huge things from me in a span of 300+ pages. The thing is... it's so easy to get caught up with everything and pass up with all the opportunities to truly live our lives. We often seem to choose to ignore the fact that life is short -- and it is indeed. So very few of us realize it and just go on with their lives just going with the flow. Safe, secured -- sheltered.

Too much realizations, gaah.

Anyway, the real star of this books (at least, for me) was none other than Will Traynor. He's witty, he's charming, he's a real stunner (if you know what I mean) -- he has all the characteristics becoming of a fictional literary boyfriend (he's in my list, tbh). But for me, the thing that sets Will apart from most fictional guys that I've read so far is that he's a realist. I can't say that I fully understand him choosing the things he chose, but I get his point. His chemistry with Lou was palpable. Sometimes, I find myself consciously making an effort not to skip pages to where there maybe a dialogue between the two. It was such a fun to behold, especially with the light scenes. I like the way he call Lou 'Clark'. I love how Louisa, somehow, shuts him up with Will be like 'you got a point'. I am so in love with their crazy banters, and I spent so much time re-reading and re-reading everything until I get tired -- which was pretty much a very long time. I love them together it's not even funny.

Drowning in my own feels.
(c) Tumblr
I remember shutting the door of my room, and reading those last few chapters in silence -- taking in all the acceptance and resignation that all the characters in those last few pages are feeling, mirroring my own. There was the occasional choking up, and the sniffing game was strong during that time.After reading this, my emotions are all over the place. But luckily, I held my own. It was just emotionally exhausting, but overall, it was really worth it

I love how reading this was such an emotional roller coaster for me. One minute I was giggling at Lou and Will's witty banters, the next I am down in the dumps realizing how sad the situation was. Real art is supposed to make you feel something (ahem, Park Sheridan, ahem). And if those are not indication of real, great art... then I don't know what is.

This book was created with such realness it hurts just even realizing it. Well this does not, in the first place, promise a happy ending -- but that did not lessen the intensity of the blow any bit. It was certainly something to remember.

And though maybe I would never fully understand some choices made during the course of its narrative, I wouldn't have it any other way. It was real as it was painful -- and surprisingly, there's none of that empty feeling you have when you read a book or watched something that's just sad. It was warm and it made me smile (despite the tears). It was like letting something dear to you go with complete acceptance -- painful, but you know it was necessary.

My Rating: ★★★ (5 out of 5 stars)

First book this year to get a 5 from me. Need I say more? No this is not a 'too-caught-up-in-the-moment' kind of rating. It's just that good. Here's a book that would really stay with you long after you read it. Definitely recommended, a hundred times over! Oh, Will Traynor.

Here's the book trailer, for your reference.
I've been posting about it on my social media accounts that many took notice of and, voila: book recommendations galore.

Quotable Quotes:
(Be prepared for so much after the jump! I've already filtered it at this point, believe me.)
The thing about being catapulted into a whole new life - or at least, shoved up so hard against someone else's life that you might as well have your face pressed against their window - is that it forces you to rethink your idea of who you are. Or how you might seem to other people.

"I just... want to be a man who has been to a concert with a girl in a red dress. Just for a few minutes more." 
"You only get one life. It's actually your duty to live it as fully as possible." - Will Traynor 
"Some mistakes... just have greater consequences than others. But you don't have to let that night be the things that defines you." I felt his head tilt against mine. "You, Clark, have the choice not to let that happen." 
'Sometimes, Clark, you are pretty much the only thing that makes me want to get up in the morning.'

And then he smiled. It was lovely, his smile -- a slow thing, full of recognition. 
Do you know how hard it is to say nothing? When every atom of you strains to do the opposite?

'You're going to feel uncomfortable in your new world for a bit. It always does feel strange to be knocked out of your comfort zone. But I hope you feel a bit exhilarated too. Your face when you came back from diving that time told me everything; there is a hunger in you, Clark. A fearlessness. You just buried it, like most people do.
Aye. Forever noted, ser.

Sunday, July 26, 2015

Life in Squares: Week 1 (07.19-25.2015)

I am starting a new series called "Life in Squares" wherein I chronicle the going-ons of my past week through series of pictures a.k.a my Instagram posts. I know you've heard the title somewhere, and this may seem unoriginal (or, for some, a bit corny) but this is just me trying to atone for my mistake of turning this blog into a lifeless space in the interweb. This is me trying to be get involved once again - to show my readers, if there is even one, that there is still a live, human girl behind this blog.

In this fast-paced world that we are in right now, it's so easy to be caught up with short-form expressions of one's own thoughts. Facebook. Instagram. Twitter. Heck, I do admit that I've been more active in short-form media these days seemingly abandoning this blog that I've put my all in the past few years of my difficult life. But long-form blogging still have this charm I can never deny.

So enough of the trivialities, here goes:

cJuly 19 - 25, 2015

(L to R, T to B)

1. My sister and I tried this really cool place back at home called "The Backyard Food Truck Community". I was looking forward to the coffee during that time but it was just okay and the food was nice. It kinda looks like a hippster-ish kind of hangout place so it was awesome and a breath of fresh air, honestly. We sat on a table located just outside where you can see an ongoing live-art performance and an outdoor cinema featuring some NatGeo clips when I happen to snap a picture of their cool chandelier. It was made of plastic, cheap-looking at some angles -- but it was definitely nice to look at. I captioned it with a sentence from pleasefindthis' I Wrote This For You:

"So you look for patterns because that's what humans do to try and make sense of things."

2. Eating Korean Ice Cream never felt this good. Yum. Gone shopping to replenish some supplies at home, and it's really nice to just hang out at the mall bleachers after a good long walk, just observing people who pass by, and eating good food. Chocolate never failed to cheer me up.

3. I purchased Abby Sy's The ABCs of Hand Lettering one random day at the nearest Ministop. I was determined to have a new hobby during my slack days back then. And this is me trying it out for the first time while nursing my broken #feels because of my Me Before You hangover.
"Live boldly. Push yourself. Don't settle." - Will Traynor, Me Before You
4. This is what you get when you're reading a magazine in the middle of the night and you suddenly feel your creative juice flowing. Lol. By the time I was finished, I cut off nearly all I liked in that issue it was basically murdered. Anyway, it's nice to finally update my BDJ Dream Board. Haven't actually pasted it though.

5. Okay. So I was too caught up with my book hangover that I actually went to the nearest Fullybooked to look for a physical copy of Jojo Moye's Me Before You ( I only read it in .epub) to just outright feel it. As expected, it was so nice to just stare at the glory of the printed words (Will Traynor's letter. In print. #creys) since I was too broke that time for the life of me. Maybe next time. Haha. The #bookwormfeels are strong.

6.-7. I've been doing client work at Intramuros for a couple of days now. But this was the first time that I actually made the effort to climb that wall and marvel at its timeless feel. So, armed with my new trusty companion (Blackberry Q10's amazeballs camera), explore and walk I did. It was so picturesque, for some reason -- maybe the charm of all things vintage and old has not lost its charm to me. I enjoyed it so much that I even made something out of it:
These cobblestoned streets witnessed
more than we could ever see
for ourselves.
8. Attended the Feast Manila's second sesh after a looooong while! For a time now, this place has been such a breathing space for me -- and I feel like everytime I attend a session, I am being renewed. It is so awesome worshipping the Lord especially when you're sorrounded by people who are so much more passionate about this more than you could ever be or hope for. It is always pretty liberating -- and always worth all the trouble of commuting and braving through Manila's perpetually jampacked streets. #TFMForever

9. Random strolling in a bookstore with a camera in hand leads to totally instragrammable quotes and book shots. Yeah, yeah. Who else find this cute? Ah, the quirks of unrequited feelings.

So that's me. (VSCO Cam did a pretty good job making my shots look extra appealing. Yosh.)

And while my tweets are currently protected, I recently changed the privacy setting of my Instagram account -- so now, it's for public consumption. Though this whole "privacy setting" ruled my life for like months, I do think there's no point to it since I'm not really posting any crucial personal information to begin with. So yeah, here's my Instagram account: @rzzzp. Just follow away! :)

Till next week. - R.

Saturday, July 11, 2015

Book: Death Wish (Ceruleans, #1) by Megan Tayte

Hear 'ye, folks! It's been a while. Here's another book post brought to you by Death Wish by Megan Tayte.

(Disclaimer: I received a digital copy of this book from the author herself on a read-to-review basis.)


First things first, that cover is absolutely breathtaking.

I know it may sound a bit morbid, but books dealing with anything about death has such a special place in  my heart just because. That's why when I read the book blurb, it immediately got my attention. Not to mention this is the first time in such a long while since I've read anything paranormal. And since this is a paranormal romance -- and YA, to boot -- I'm instantly sold.

Book Blurb:

Death Wish is the first of the five books in the Cerulean series -- which is a "paranormal romance set in a world where angels walk among us". (To know more about them, click here.)This book revolves around a teenager named Scarlett Blake, who, after the death of her sister Sienna, set out to their hometown to unravel the mystery surrounding the sudden event. There she'll meet many people including a boy who'll open up her heart, a new friend who will comfort her, and a mysterious grey-eyed boy.. and with it, she'll discover secrets, to her world and even with her identity.. that will shake the very core of what she was made to believe.

Whew. Quite heavy, but very intriguing indeed.

First off, the beginning. Those first sentences, first words, that're supposed to grab a reader's attention and make them decide to go for it.
"Waves everywhere, swirling, surging, seething – a raging melange of foam and salt and inky water biting at me, pulling at me, thrusting upon me a solitary invitation: Death."
It's not the best first sentence I've read (Hello "Love in the Time of Cholera", "Hard Love").. but it pulls you in -- and get pulled I did. I dived (pun intended) into this expecting paranormal all over (it's been a while, as I've said, so yeah, no judging) but there were moments in the book, particularly the first half, when I felt that it could do a lot more of that element.

Tayte's writing is lyrical as it is relatable. I love how it can get easy-going to heavy in such a fluid motion. I'm a sucker for book quotes -- not strictly those that could stand alone, but also those that can only be understood and can affect you once you read the book and followed its journey.

Here're some examples:
"There was a moment of stillness inside, and then the dam broke, I wondered how, after all these weeks, there could be any tears left."
How there could be no enough tears, no enough missing. How you think you've moved on but the truth is you just got better in handling it. You don't break down anymore -- at least, less frequently.
"Sometimes I even convinced myself I could still feel her out there, in the way i had always felt her -- sad or happy, angry or frightened -- our whole lives. But she was gone, i knew that."
That state of denial -- even if you already knew, at the pit of your stomach, the sad truth that you can never bring that person back.
"I thought of Sienna, lying beneath the grass at my feet, and then I thought of her watching me from above. I looked up, I smiled."
That acceptance and letting go. :)

I thought reading through the "normal" parts of the books would be a bore... but no, it has been a continuing journey of revisiting emotions long gone and long understood. And it warmed me up and made me happy at realizing how far I've come. Without realizing it, reading through this book easily turned into a personal experience in itself -- and that's one of the things I love about reading.

It was such a wonderful experience witnessing how Scarlett came to terms with what happened to her sister... and somewhere along the way, I can feel her emotions mirroring my own. First person POVs are the best, really.

And the romance! I must admit that it was a bit predictable at first, but the emotional connection of the two built around mutual experiences about loss and comforting gestures was such a wonder to behold. It was easy, not forced -- natural.
"I fell, and I didn't want to be saved."
I'm literally writing this review with Ed Sheeran's Kiss Me on loop! -- and it gives me the goosies remembering that romantic atmosphere and the way Scarlett said it. I was in love with their love.

But in time, I was also intrigued with Jude -- the mysterious, grey-eyed guy that holds the key to most of Scarlett's questions. There came a time when my imagination was too busy formulating how a love story could brew from these two -- but I got too caught up, and before I knew it, things are progressing and I'm left confused I don't even know what to think anymore.

Reading through this book was a breeze. Paranormal romance has not been a staple genre in my reads, but I must admit that this is quite good. The concept, the idea. And though the 1st book gives us too vague, or even too little of the information to which the whole Cerulean series revolves, it is comforting to note that there're still 4 books left to make it a complete story altogether. This first book focuses on how Scarlett (and the reader, I guess) was introduced to that other world.

While the ending was too much of a cliffhanger, it raised the anticipation to read the next book, Forget Me Not, in the series. I myself cannot wait to get a hold of the next one. Definitely recommended!

My Rating: ★★★☆ (3 out of 5 stars)

Quotable Quotes:

"It's the getting back on each time you fall off that counts." Luke
"What seems to us a sunset is a sunrise in another land" Sienna's cenotaph 
"Any truth is better that indefinite doubt." Scarlett 
"Note to self: when feeling good, steer clear of contact with anyone who can change that." 
"That my little white dress was having a little black-dress effect on you?" LOL.
And finally,

"Head up, shoulders back, chest out, take no prisoners"


Related Posts Plugin for WordPress, Blogger...
back to top