Ever felt like you're not good enough at what you WANT to do? For years now, I've believed that if I live in a perfect world, reading and writing would be the only things that I want to do for the rest of my life. We all had these kind of days... when you feel inferior all of a sudden and you, at a snap of a finger, realize that you've been wasting your time believing you're good at a certain thing. Well, I'm probably feeling it right now.
It is really disheartening. It sucks. I don't always fool myself that I'm an impeccable writer. In fact, I'm far from it. I've written amateurly through the years. And unlike most of those who venture on this path, I didn't have that much of a background when it comes to the basics of writing and writing as a whole. I have grammatical errors and misspelling in my posts, but I try to keep them low to the best of my abilities. (And no matter how cliche it sounds) I'm not perfect.
The bottom line is that I admit that I'm not that good of a writer, but I chose to think that it's because I love what I am doing that's why I still push through. But to borrow a quote from one of my all-time favorite Kseries, "Being 'good' and 'trying hard' are two different things." Oh well...
I know I promised to just fill this blog with all the things that make me happy, but there's just too many negative thoughts in my head right now -- and I know I have to vent it out.
In hopes of cheering myself up, I decided to look back on one post that made me smile regarding this matter:
I recently joined a community in Google+ called Writer's Discussion Group, and such short stay already proved to me that writers are the most sensible and insightful bunch of people -- ever!
|So there goes the conversation...|
Thanks +Cyndi Shively! You really made my day. :)
So that's that I guess. I just have to remember that whenever I feel things like this again. You cannot fake passion, and even if I'm not that good at what I want to do, I still can't deny the fact that I love what I am doing and writing (+ reading) will always be a big part of myself.
I just need to stop and breathe in order to let all of these frustrations disappear now. :)
I can't believe this simple post had an effect to these lovely people. Here's some snippet:
I just thanked them, but they're thanking me now. I'm really really glad I'm part of the WDG family! :)
These and the comments below are what keeps me going despite setbacks. I promise, I won't stop. :))